I’m still here (you didn’t care, probably)

Posted on: March 31, 2007

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For some reason, I felt the need to write, dunno why, just did. Been neglecting this space a little bit.

I’ve been kinda busy, but it’s just a lot of the same ol’, same ol’.

I’ve been out of my cast for about a month now, and I’m due for what will probably be my last checkup on it this week.

It’s interesting after getting the cast off. I found myself getting excited over little details, such as being able to bend it a little bit more and more every few days eventually to the point where it has pretty much all the mobility that it used to have before I broke it.

My ever-so-faithful computer broke down again a month ago, due to the built-in hard drive controller flaking out. I thus had to be bailed out again by the generosity of my parents, who are far kinder to me that I feel I deserve, and I am always grateful for this. So I was given a slight upgrade to some more modern computing equipment. I don’t know what I’ll ever do with the extra speed, but it’s fun to mess around with it.

I decided to, upon a whim, last semester to take Japanese and am currently continuing it this semester. First and foremost: it is my belief that Japanese is only a fraction as complicated as it looks. Yeah, it can be very confusing in some of it’s grammatical structure and rules and the kanji can lead to some confusion, but for the most part, it’s really easy. Maybe it’s because I might have an affinity for picking up and learning languages that are taught to me (which would be almost hilarious, but something that makes sense to me,) but I’m not really finding it all that difficult. A quick little bit of routine studying here and there has been doing me good for the past semester and a half.

I seriously think taking Japanese on a whim what probably one of the best decisions I’ve ever made recently. Not only is it a language I enjoy taking, but I met most of my college friends through this venture. The group of I people I frequently hang around with are probably some of the best people I’ve met. They’re all smart and funny people, and I, most of all, enjoy spending my time with them. I enjoy joking around with them after Japanese class for hours on end, hanging out with them on Friday nights, the random weekend trip across the border to Canada because one of us was turning 19, I enjoy every single moment.

The only thing with taking Japanese is this unsettling thought: Why am I in Computer Science/Engineering? Over the past year I’ve started getting disinterested in the whole CSE department, be it the realization of the shitload of work I have ahead of me, and a lot of the content is just plain boring. I enjoyed CSE 115/116, despite my complaints about Java, because not only was I learning stuff, I felt like I was doing things. Now I’m in the beginning of the “thick of it” and it’s just boring theory crap. And let’s be honest here, analyzing theoretical shit about the efficiency of a loop of code is really, really, so very really, boring shit. I understand why knowing how efficient a type of programming algorithm and when to use them is important, but I quite frankly don’t give a damn about the sigma- or Big-Oh-notation of this loop. I want to use it! I want to see how it’s important! I want someone who is capable of speaking decent, clear English showing this to me! And the sad part is, this is just the science portion. I’m nowhere near the Engineering portion yet. I guess I’m just realizing that using computers is really fun, learning about them however, takes a different kind of liking of computers to enjoy.

So, I’ve started thinking about looking into changing my major, before it’s too late for it to be a smart decision. It’s just, I don’t know what to change it to. I’m thinking of doing something with and continuing my Japanese education, but the best I can think of that interests me is doing English as a Second Language education abroad. This is something my university offers, something that sounds really interesting to me, but however, something that requires a major change later in life that, quite frankly, scares me. I guess because the odds look like they’re greater, I’m a lot more reluctant to just jump right into something. I need to do something, but I just don’t know what. I guess I’ll just have to see where life takes me and do what I have to do.

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